Birds Of A Feather Flock Together

WOWZER its been a long ass time since I've been on this bad boy.

I am a happy and normal teenager these days. I have stopped blogging and journaling quite a bit as of late because I feel to self-centered doing it. But sometimes on those bad days...it's just really nice to vent to someone (or in my case something) that will understand.

What do I even say? Uhhhh boy issues are at an all time high. I have two prospects in mind. One who is my best guy friend and the other, a new friend from school. The new friend from school started as a tactic to make H (my best guy friend) jealous. Now I actually like this boy. oh man oh man. But the question is...do either of them like me back?

Finals are coming fast and hard this week considering I have to take them early..since I'm going to Colorado! I also just got back from the Netherlands because I went to visit my aunt. Yeeeesh I just got caught up and now I have to do all this shit. I have nooooo free time these days.

Speaking of free-time. I have quit both my sports. And I could not be happier. It has brightened everything considerably. I have also gotten a job at the Y and I am painting a mural on my wall =) I have discovered this new passion for painting. I never thought I could draw or paint..but here I am doing both. I'm no artist though, I simply recreate awesome hippie works that I like.

I'm farely certain that's all I have to say. I mean there is so much more...but I'm tired of typing.

Oh blog I have missed you so.

i candy coat and cover everything that i'm still hiding underneath. its been a long time. its been a long time.

wpa= complete fucking piece'o'shit.
slumdog millionaire= best movie everr.

i dont even know anymore.
do i sound like im slipping into a depression stage?
i feel like i do.

i feel like i dont make any of my own decisions, they're all made for me.
and my grades suck shit rite now. well not really just by my moms standards.
b's arent good enough.

but on the dreery brightside, i did find my dream job and ive already started the quest to persue it.

it incorporates my two loves music and writing.

i want to be the red bull pit reporter for the warped tour...its actually just an internship but whatever that will help me better my career. i have to be 18 and im still only 15 so in three summers its on like donkey kong. for serious i'm getting that job its a dream job that could greatly benifit my career. and contrary to your belief i can actually write, though you couldn't tell by the way i write on here. =)

boo i am a whore

so previously i said i was sick but really ok


wellllll i lied.

i AM sick and it hurts so bad to cough. i feel like my esophagus or however you spell it is shredding into a million pieces. helpp

*ech *ech i'm sick. boo you whore

ech ech i'm sick today.

i actually didn't feel good this morning but in reality i'm fine i just didn't wanna go to basketball.

what bad karma. blehhhhh.

ROBERT PLANT owns. i lovee it. and the jonas brothers with stevie wonder... awesomeeee.
i lovee the grammies

i cant wait for wpa its going to be awESOME

i'm so happy

the guy i've liked for practically the past YEAR broke up with his girlfriend or she broke up with him, or they decided mutually? i dont know the details but he's single!

the problem
**i dont think he even knows my name, and he goes to another school.
there's many more problems with this crush but i wont bore you or myself in explaining them.

all i know is... i'm one step closer to my dream boyfriend hahaha. key word DREAM

jolly good day

they CANCELED finals!
eat it.

this was my schedule this past week for school:

monday-full day which means nothing cause its finals week.
tuesday-early out (2 hrs. early)
wednesday-no school
thursday-no school
friday-no school (but i still had my basketball game)
saturday&sunday-goes as planned.
monday-no school (MLK day)

it was a hard and tedious week.. can yah tell?

whoop whoop.

FINALS

i have an appointment with my counselor on wednesday to talk about doing the year abroad program. i want to go somewhere english speaking since i only hardly know spanish.. so i was thinking london or somewhere near that. =) i'm really excited it should be fun.


its finals week. bleh. but it'll be fine i just have to keep studying like i have been and its allll good.

semester abroad.

new years resolutions

1) have a healthy mindset. step away from the pessimism.
2) be a healthier person in general
3) get nothing below a b+

i dont feel like disecting them on here but i will in my journal.


school starts tomorrow i really dont want to go.

while we were in breckenridge my sister and i talked about doing a semester abroad. i really like the idea and i think i might actually do it. it would be very fun, but sad to leave my friends and family behind. and if i did do it i wouldn't have to do basketball next year.