too tired

i'll make the concert blog later since im going to put in pictures and videos =DD

another thought

oh and then once i left the tournament she played the guilt trip card and tryed to get everyone to side with her by crying.

i hope no one i know sees this .. its just random venting that iwould normally put in a journal. except for the fact that this IS my journal.

then she emailed my mom and my mom let her have it. in a semi respectable way of course.

so much has happened and i havent even updated!!

first of all.... SIX FLAGS WAS FUCKING BEAST! wow one of the best days of my life. and i got it alllll on video. i was going to make a documentary .. but then ... my gay ass video camera decided to be stupid and not let me upload all the videos i took =( argggg.

secondly,,, i had a volleyball tournament this past weekend... AND I QUIT DURING IT!! it was so insane. my coach who fucked me over all season made the decision to put in a setter at MY spot when someone got hurt. i snapped. i was bawling and shaking and i just couldn't do it. she said it was because i didn't have my t-shirt off. WHAT THE FUCK? really? wow what kind of a reason is that... i just went up to her after that game and told her i quit and that i couldn't do it anymore.. then i left. my parents weren't even there. once i left though the whole team fell apart and all the starters who are like my best friends just didn't want to be there anymore and our undefeated volleyball team took fifth in the tournament. HAHAH. i didn't mean to make them fall apart, i just wanted the coach to fall apart like the pansy that she is. which this is all really mean but you don't even KNOW. oh my god. lfkjaklsdjg;a;;; im still upset about it. i cryed so much saturday. but i guess its chill now.

now i'll post a whole seperate entry for the family force five, danger radio, play radio play, ultra violet sound concert!!!! which was so sick.

oh and i started drivers ed =)

you got me going crazyyy..

so today was total and complete chaos.

first off, i had a game last night.. TWO HOURS AWAY, so i got home at like 11
secondly, i had to go in early to school to do this gay mind map thing for english.. and my group didnt show up!
thirdly, i also had to make a notecard for my chem test, finish my chem project (which i hadnt even started) and finish my quiz from chemistry the day before.
thennn i had to take an english test over the mind map i finished earlier that morning
after that i had too finish my math at lunch and do my spanish homework during the class that it was due in.
once that was done i went to chem and took the test after studying for about two seconds.

then i was confronted by a teacher about someone else cheating in class. how in the hell do i answer that?! especially when he cheated off of my test and the teacher didn't even know it!..and hes really hot too.

after that whole stupid thing.. i got to go home.
but not until i found a ride home... since kelsey never answers her flippin phone.



but now its all good cause i got the hot pink hat i wanted from target and i ate pancheros!
woooop.. and we didnt have volleyball tonight.. thank the lord.

i also sat next to this incredibly sexy kid in study hall. we've been in study hall for like half the quarter together and all we've done is made intense eye contact and finally today he got the balls to come and sit by me at the computers =D=D it pretty much made my horrible day. and he looked gooood today.

i think im going to start putting up videos and pictures on this thingy. it'll make what im trying to say soo much cooler.

forty year old man with ties to the mob and the black market.

we have a volleyball game two hours away tomorrow.

how GAYYY

and we had a team dinner tonight. that was gay too.

i can't wait for the season to be over. then basketball can start. woo.
i want a break from sports.. but im still pumped for basketball.

we have a four day weekend next week
.. and i get to go to a family force five/the cab concert =DDD


me and my bestest friend ever were having a conversation through text today and it was so funny. it went something like this.
k for katie
l for lexi(me)

k: hows chem
l: gay gay gay
k: oh thats nice
l: it is, just to be clear i am going with you and kels after school
k: ok thanks for clearing that up, last time the whole situation was a bit foggy
l: what are you? a forty year old english man
k: shh dont tell anyone, they might put me on the sex offenders list
l: i wont. thats understandable since you sit in the girls locker room every morning and since you play volleyball with girls in short tight spandex every day.
k: im glad you understand, otherwise i'd have to get my buddies to rape you.
l: why not you?
k: i like to watch, its more enjoyable
l: well since were sharing secrets.. im an old man who has ties to the black market and the mob
k: i wont tell, its our little secret.
l: thanks buddy.
k: yeah no problem, we should get together some time and swap stories.
l: yeah sounds like a plan


wow were fucked up.. or maybe just bored.

were the type of friends who can sit in one of our rooms allllll day doing absolutely nothing but listening to music and talking.

and we probably have more fun than you............well obviously since your a cyberspace journal and no one reads this..hah. but its more fun to act like someone reads this so they can laugh at my pathetic excuse for a life.



i've been thinking a lot about my future lately even though im only a tenth grader.
so far ive come up with these ideas and reasons not to persue in them

1. journalism (starving artist job and i'm really not that good and the only good pay in this job is if you make it big)
2. something in history/pop culture ( bad pay unless you do something boring or make it big)
3. modeling (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA never would i be good enough for that i already suck at normal life)
4. teaching (i pretty much hate kids and i really don't like school all that much. hell im already trying to get out)
5. actor (HAHAHAHHAHAHAH once again im ugly and probably can't act but im very good at being dramatic and making people laugh ... which is quite surprising since im not even funny just dark and sarcastic mostly)
6. NO SCIENCE OR MATH THINGS I SUCK AT THEM AND HATE THEM
7. idk what else ..... be in a band ... that would never happen .. im trying to learn the guitar and i cant sing
8. i dont know i give up.. fuck my future.

a;lkj;

we had a volleyball tournament this weekend .. aka my whole fucking saturday.

and guess what... i didn't play a single fucking minute. its so fucked up. i go from starting my whole life in volleyball playing one of the two rights and then come this season i sit almost every game. fuck my life, fuck my coach, fuck fuck FUCK.

but then i slept over at kelseys house and her sexyyyy older brother whos nineteen was home all night =))) which made my day infinetly better. spell check on infinetly? w/e

but i really love but hate volleyball season right now. were undefeated this season and everyone has big heads about it, and yeah were good but it would be a hell of a lot more challenging if all the good players on every other team didn't get moved up. yes we still beat them anyway, but this season is not challenging at all to our team and we need to get better.

i can't wait for basketball season its going to be BOMB. i got my bestest friend forever to go out this year. she quit before the season last year and she's insanely good and i talked her into it this year =DDDD she said shes going to quit if she doesn't like it but im still REALLy excited.

enough about sports.

so kelseys brother, whos name is keil said hes gonna take us partying WOOOT.
college parties=sexy boys

bring it.

i watched a movie called remember the daze today hah. it had absolutely no point and it was really trippy and all about highschoolers doing 'shrooms and getting high and stuff. it was really funny.

then i carved a pumpkin.. which is absolutely amazing i might add.

and my parents were out of town this weekend which was very nice.

the breakup

katie broke up with dan last night. although he was like crying and i felt bad about it i still had one of the funniest nights of my life.

i had chinese tonight =D it was pretty bomb.

we watched the truman show in english and it was amazing. its about this guy who's whole life is a reality show that streams 24/7 on tv, but heres the kicker...he doesn't know his life is a reality show. his whole world is fake.. from his family to his wife to his wholeee life! even the sun and the moon and EVERYTHING it was absolutely fucked up and crazy but probably one of the best movies ever. i would seriously recommend that. and jim carreys in it.

halloweens coming up! anddd im going to frightfest at six flags in two weekends =)))))))) im so happy about that. its going to be pretty b.a.

homecoming was last weekend, it was pretty dece but i had a stalker the WHOLE night. hes one of my best guy friends too. i was like seriously dude BACK OFF. oh my. but man this kid i know whos from a different school was there and i have a crush on him and man did he look good. and i felt bad for him because he came with his girlfriend but she kept ditching him, so for like two of the four hours he was sitting at a table texting. haha. but he looked gorgeous.. if only he knew me.. dangg. haha it'll happen.

the homecoming game was tonight

i hung out with three EXTREMELY sexyyyy boys.

it was amazing.

one is one that i tutor =D

hopefully we'll talk on monday

and tomorrow is the dance and i still need my dress
but im going in a suburban limo thing its TIGHTT.

im really happy tonight
and i got a pair of sunglasses blue shorts and two pairs of really sweet earings

thats propably why =D

thats about it for now

i still need a homecoming dress


my ankle is huge again


shitt.

i might even be a rockstar!!

sooo...its homecoming week.

that means gay dress up days like for instance.. today was clash day. its shit.

but tomorrow is rockstar day and i might possibly do it just so i can look sweet in an outfit that i couldn't pull off on a normal day. and its the perfect excuse to wear my hot pink skinny jeans which i havent worn since last year =( but yayy =) i get to wear them.

the good thing about homecoming week is ... TPing!!! except for the fact that if you get caught you spend the night in jail and are suspended from homecoming activities.

for example: two guys got arrested at school today because they were dumb asses and went to TP this one dudes house since he egged one of the guys cars and he was waiting and they binded him by his ankles and hands and beat him up and saran wrapped him to a tree. hahahah but it sucks cause they were charged with kidnapping and assault. ouch.

i also had early practice this morning and i have it tomorrow too and i can't even practice cause of my fucking ankle.

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.