forty year old man with ties to the mob and the black market.

we have a volleyball game two hours away tomorrow.

how GAYYY

and we had a team dinner tonight. that was gay too.

i can't wait for the season to be over. then basketball can start. woo.
i want a break from sports.. but im still pumped for basketball.

we have a four day weekend next week
.. and i get to go to a family force five/the cab concert =DDD


me and my bestest friend ever were having a conversation through text today and it was so funny. it went something like this.
k for katie
l for lexi(me)

k: hows chem
l: gay gay gay
k: oh thats nice
l: it is, just to be clear i am going with you and kels after school
k: ok thanks for clearing that up, last time the whole situation was a bit foggy
l: what are you? a forty year old english man
k: shh dont tell anyone, they might put me on the sex offenders list
l: i wont. thats understandable since you sit in the girls locker room every morning and since you play volleyball with girls in short tight spandex every day.
k: im glad you understand, otherwise i'd have to get my buddies to rape you.
l: why not you?
k: i like to watch, its more enjoyable
l: well since were sharing secrets.. im an old man who has ties to the black market and the mob
k: i wont tell, its our little secret.
l: thanks buddy.
k: yeah no problem, we should get together some time and swap stories.
l: yeah sounds like a plan


wow were fucked up.. or maybe just bored.

were the type of friends who can sit in one of our rooms allllll day doing absolutely nothing but listening to music and talking.

and we probably have more fun than you............well obviously since your a cyberspace journal and no one reads this..hah. but its more fun to act like someone reads this so they can laugh at my pathetic excuse for a life.



i've been thinking a lot about my future lately even though im only a tenth grader.
so far ive come up with these ideas and reasons not to persue in them

1. journalism (starving artist job and i'm really not that good and the only good pay in this job is if you make it big)
2. something in history/pop culture ( bad pay unless you do something boring or make it big)
3. modeling (HAHAHAHAHAHAHA never would i be good enough for that i already suck at normal life)
4. teaching (i pretty much hate kids and i really don't like school all that much. hell im already trying to get out)
5. actor (HAHAHAHHAHAHAH once again im ugly and probably can't act but im very good at being dramatic and making people laugh ... which is quite surprising since im not even funny just dark and sarcastic mostly)
6. NO SCIENCE OR MATH THINGS I SUCK AT THEM AND HATE THEM
7. idk what else ..... be in a band ... that would never happen .. im trying to learn the guitar and i cant sing
8. i dont know i give up.. fuck my future.